So June 3rd comes around and I'm so nervous! I practiced what I was going to say about 100 times throughout the day. The way I was carrying on about it in my head, you would think I was going to give this hour long speech in front of a million people! But no, it was a 5 minute interview…
Jodie was gracious enough to pick up on my nerves and suggest that we talk about Hope Mommies in sort of like an interview type fashion. She would introduce a little of how I brought Hope Mommies to her attention and I would explain who they are and what they do. Then she would introduce Jaxon's story a little bit and I would tie it in with how I received a Hope Box and how it ministered to me. And then we would tell about the project- raising money to build Hope Boxes and I explained a little about what goes in each box and how we would get them out to future Hope Moms on behalf of our women at IBC. So simple. And yet I made it so hard!!!
So at 6:30 I get to bible study. I meet up with some of the girls I've known for a little while and chat for a little bit (as I'm shaking in my flip flops.) Time comes for us to pick our tables. Here we go.
The first thing we do after we settle down at our tables is an ice breaker exercise to get to know the women at your table and introduce yourselves and chat a little bit. We had to draw a piece of paper out of this basket and answer the random question that was on the paper you picked. I was pretty much the last to go, so I got to hear most of the questions and plan my answers. There were questions like "what is your favorite hobby," "what is the most random job you've had," and "tell us about something you have as a keepsake." Oh crap, I thought, I hope I don't get that question. Let me explain that I even get nervous introducing myself to a table of women, and the last thing I want to do right now is cry to these new ladies that my son passed away and I have A TON of keepsakes of him. I did know some of the girls at my table, but most of the were unfamiliar faces.
But of course I drew that question. And of course I ran from it like a chicken. I believe I said something like, "the necklace I am wearing around my neck right now is a keepsake of my son. And that's all I'll say about that!" I quickly passed the basket of questions before I teared up and freaked these new ladies out. :)
Ok, I survived that… now it's time for announcements. I knew I was to go up at some point during this, but not sure exactly when.
The next 20 mins or so seemed to draaaaaaaag oooooooooon and I seriously considered bolting out of the side door. But too late… It was my turn.
And I have good news :) It went great. :)
Yet again, God pushed me to do something way out of my comfort zone. I did it (although I about threw up while I was walking up on stage!). Later that evening, a friend of mine called and said that while I was speaking about Hope Mommies, she could hear coins clinking left and right as they were dropped in the money jars. How cool is that! :)
I am so proud to be a part of such an amazing church and to know this women's ministry is made up of women that help. It was my bible study girls that lifted us up with food and prayer. They were donating to Hope Mommies months before IBC began raising money. It was Jodie that came to visit me in the hospital the day after Jaxon passed. This is my family!! I am so thankful that God placed me here with them. He knew what was coming. He loves us so much, I am sitting here with this huge smile on my tear soaked face, filled with so much broken joy...